So it was just the other day I had a sweet cuddly newborn baby boy. And now I have a giant baby monster.If you don't believe me, see the picture below.
A six month old who is in to everything, rolls onto his belly immediately when it is time for a diaper change or to get dressed, wears 12 month clothes, sits up, stands up, scoots backwards and in circles, attempts to eat anything and everything within his path, laughs pretty much on command, has a smile that melts my heart, weighs nearly 20 pounds and is in the 95 percentile for height.
Seriously where did the time go? The past 6 months have flown by. And the funny thing about it is that when I first brought my little bundle of joy home it seemed like time was going so slowly. I literally felt like I was feeding the little big guy all day and night. That is all I did. It was a huge adjustment for me at first. I was used to a super busy schedule where I was able to go out and about freely. Being at home and inside by myself with a newborn all day everday took some getting used to. It's a good thing it was summer and we could at least take advantage of the weather and go on a walk or two. I swear those breaths of fresh air saved me. Don't get me wrong. I have absolutely and completely loved my sweet baby boy more than I ever thought possible. But adjusting to motherhood was harder than I thought. I was always worried about everything! Is he eating enough? too much? is he hot? cold? sick? breathing? bored? overstimulated? etc. I was always doubting myself as a mother even though I was doing the best that I could. Now that I look back on these times of uneasiness and doubt I really miss them. I wish I would have spent less time worrying and more time taking it all in. Taking in the fact that I am a mother(the greatest calling a woman can have) to the sweetest baby boy imaginable. My mom has always said that the greatest time in her life was raising her children. Now I am starting to understand what she meant. The past six months have been the greatest of my life. More than I could ever ask for. My sweet baby James makes life so magical. It blows my mind everyday that he is mine. It's crazy how much he has grown and changed in such a short time. You always worry about your baby hitting their milestones, but then when they do you wish you could go back. Go back and experience everything again right up to those first tender moments when they lay your baby in your arms and they cuddle sweetly next to you and you can just tell that they came straight down from your Heavenly Father. I've been doing a lot of reminiscing the past week or so as I've had a nice much needed break from work. It all started when I decided it was time to pack up James' newborn, 0-3, and 3-6 month clothes in order to make room for the abundance of new things he would be receiving for Christmas. I've been putting this off for awhile and boy was it tough for me. With each outfit, onesie, pair of tiny shoes, it seemed like there was a memory attached.
Like the time my baby first smiled at me in his lil' buckaroo onesie with the picture of his dad riding my favorite horse Carl.
Or bringing him home from the hospital in his Griffindor onesie. 
Or putting his little cowboy boots on for his first photoshoot. 
Or, even those giant greenish blue hospital binkies that took up practically his whole face. Oh how he loved those.
And now he won't even take a binkie. Oh how things have changed. He got his first ride on toy for Christmas. It's a purple and green dinosaur that he can sit on or stand behind and push. He loves it. Can't work it by himself yet, but loves for me to push him on it.
This picture isn't very good proof that he likes it but I promise he does.
Checking out his new presents at Grandma's house.
Oh and he got his first gun. Not to my knowledge of course. Jared bought it for him. It's a high powered air soft gun. Really Jared just bought it for himself, but since it was Christmas and all, wrapped it up and put James name on it. Let's just say I was a little shocked when James, assisted by myself, opened it up. But I'm sure in the blink of an eye James will be old enough to use it.
You would think with all the new things he got this kid would be set. But he would much rather play with the wrapping paper. We sure do love this baby monster.
